monday 16-06-08 (finally)

yeah i 've been around...had a lot of things to talk about but was just to lazy to blog...
i still want to continue with this diary though and i'll find time to fill in the days i missed...
i just didnt want to blog,i have a very short attention span and if i've been blogging for this long, i probably will be able to get to the end of the year Insha Allah...yes my attention span is 6 months at the most and if i get past that it'll be 3 years...its helped me in business,relationship and life as a whole...i'm just looking for the next thing...

i've been a couple of delimma's in the last few days...starting from that trip to owu falls,

i didnt know that keeping a daily diary was this difficult at least i tried sha, my paper diaries are just filled with tips, quotes, my jottings from classes and the books i read...yes i dont write stuff in my paper diary...i just use it to keep notes...yeah yeah i'm just rambling abi...i'm letting my thoughts out for the 1st time in a while...

i have role models, mr Richard branson and Mr donald trump, wonderful individuals, successes in business, billionaires and...have divorced atleast once...shey u understand where i'm coming from...anyways i'm like if i wasnt to be like this individuals, does that mean i'm going to marry more than one wife?and if yes,who 1st?

anyways...i get to ilorin and call sexy, i got all the info about owu falls from her...she's so surprised that i'm in ilorin,i'm surprised too...soemthing in me's telling me that i took this trip just because of her and not cause of owu falls...well thats a part of it...i do this kind of crazy things for the women in my life...lol...

and thats the point,i'm i living the life i want or living this life because of the way a woman is dictating it,i'm i basing my decisions based on wanting to be a success in my relationship 1st or a success in life...because ultimately if its about the woman...i'm going to lose...

sha, i finally get to meet sexy, a lot bigger than her picture, and we end up getting close to having sex...i couldnt because i'm thinking, distance is going to be a major factor in this relationship and she isnt what i want,honestly, i too have a list for my ideal woman and 1st and foremost i want a woman that i can share stuff with, then she must also be near...near enough for us to go on a date in an hour...not one that lives 5 or 6 hours away...i also didnt want to take her for granted cause she loved me...she did, and okay she was a virgin...i couldnt bring myself to have sex with her when i knew i wouldnt want to have a relationship with her...and no its not about std's or aids, its just that this stuff that people do lackadisically, i see as a convenant...yeah think me weird but u just dont have sex with any and everyone...period...

anyways, i get back to Lagos,after risking my life on the Ibadan to Ilorin one lane road...and i call her...my dear, we just have to break up...this couldnt possibly work...she sees reasons with me and that was it...she's now in the past although i miss her so much now...miss her big nose,small breasts,musk perfume...most of all i miss her smile and squeaky voice...i also miss her long natural hair...yes o no bi attachement...anyways as i said she's in the past and unlike others i dont make friends withe exes...when its done its done...i'll only hear from u when u call...
dont go out of ur way to call people that'll just endure talking to u and u bring memories...

thats that...i let that out...

thsi got me thinking about the other women in my life...those i could possibly marry...thing is i dont really think this women care about me...well apart from one...lets call her d, shey i told u that my brother's birthday was saturday in ibadan and yes he's having his 5th wedding annervarsary...oppurtunity to see the family again, to here the latest gist and to present D to the family...yes Other memebers have to meet her 1st before my mum...anyways, D shows up late...in a suit for this kind of party?...and i have to practically force her to meet the folks...and the judgement i got wasnt good...in short, i couldnt present her to mum unless, i feel in love with her,she uses jazz on me or , i really damn what they all say...

i ask myself why i'm i doing this to myself,why do i want to go out with someone who i might not marry?...why do i think marriage will solve a major challenge which i have which is practically becoming a success in business...

and dont go saying, shebi u run a mobile dating service, u could get another one.....
know my dear it doesnt work that way...there always has to be a connection...even if i meet 20 babes in a day,i'll only hope and pray she's the right one...

i'm already tired again although i have lots of other stuff to add maybe later...

let me just read this information about getting a visa to the us, i want to go on a short visit to see a friend...

thats another thing i want to reduce, i want to stop this my information overload...i read everything,books,magazines,blogs... listen to different kind of music,jazz,hip hop,soul,i'm really into pasuma now even though my colleagues at the office think i'm too tush to listen to fuji; watch all the programs on tv...aargh...maybe i shd take a break from all this stuff sef i'll just miss watching salvadore in the second chance...the uefa championship matches...hip tv...prime time jamz...well i have to stop one way or the other sha...

shey i've written abou tmy business yet, well okay...i will be removing a few stuff from my blog although earlier in the week i wanted to close it down...hopefully what'll be left will be original content...and i'm procastinating a lot when it comes to my business...i'm always trying to move it to the next level...always...always...well one day with the help and patronage of u guys it'll be possible...

i've been thinking abt all what is happening in my life right now...did i tell u that the event on saturday was at my brother's house...he's almost completed it...and then i learnt that my friend had moved to his own flat and now has a car...i'm happy for them, but the question that came to my mind was Olohun, when will it be my turn?...he answered in various ways before the end of the weekend...he's like Omo mi,In the marathon called life, you're not racing against opponents, you're in this race against yourself...
Later,He's like Patience,Patience...

and finally he's like what do u really want in life...
what steps are u taking to get what you want...
what wld u give up to get what you want...
thats the koko o...

i know what i wld give up sha,that thing that we guys usually do to or without ourselves when we are aroused...its a bad thing, often develops into a habit and ruins stuff...i didnt use any word o...
i wld also be willing to give up having sex till a later date...
i wld give up taking in all this information...
i wld be willing to give up chocolate..."sob"
i'd even be willing to give up asking the ladies (i probably wouldnt marry) on a date...

why is it that we often plan a lot when we dont have money,,,,then when the money comes we just discard them and go do wat we like with the money...i bet it takes self discipline abi,well i have to take time out to really develop that...

yeah, i havent updated the singles corner for a while and i will be for the end of the day...i have lots of exciting people i'd like u guys to meet...and i'll be adding a small questionaire on how to improve on the service on the side of my blog and will also be sending it to your mobile numbers...your answers and observations will be appreciated...i'm also working on a 18andabove t-shirt, working on other trips to tourist attractions...also putting in place a system by which you could advertise your products or services on 18andabove and its affiliates...

didnt know it costs this much to want to go to the us o...

work sef hasnt been really lively for me...i'm tired of still working here...its 3 years already and u wldnt beleive that i said i wasnt going to use more than months...the whole work i do at work isnt up to 3 hours out of 8 and i spend the rest of the day chatting with pple i'm not feeling at all or browsing stuff that i wouldnt probably remember tomorrow...damn